We all have smthg that keeps us goin.. sm relation, sm motivation, sm goal, sm hobby.. there's always smthg that we need or reach upto in the lone times.. or a low feeling.. smthg that we could easily depend on... its surely not a bad or good habit, but more lik a comfort zone.. my habit is to write down wht i feel.. not sure that i always land up with words for it.. but still i manage...
As well i lik to go for a walk, listening to my fav songs.. played randomly.. the thoughts that peep into are broken down wit the curiosity, which song would b the next.. i knw although all songs in my playlist are my fav, yet havin 180 songs.. sure makes it quiet unpredictable which would b the next.. while walkin i do lik to observe ppl around me.. ppl on streets.. ppl in shops.. ppl in resto's.. ppl passin by.. riding along.. everyone has smthg on their minds.. its not lik sm tension.. or thoughts abt world peace.. but yaa.. smthg thats keepin them goin on.... a smile on a lil girl's face when her dad gives her the ice cream she's been demandin for, is an achievement in itself.. a lady who has jus purchased her fav vegetable for the meal she would be cookin.. can imagine her sense of content while servin her family.. a group of frnds sharin their jokes over a cup of coffee, sure adds to their memories of bein together.. not jus in coll but partyin out.. these all thgs are a part of every individual's life.. at different stages.. these memories surely keep us goin on..
Every mornin as I wake up.. I say to myself, its a beautiful day today.. n nothin wrong is goin to happen.. u knw whts the best part abt doin so.. even though i knw, there's sm incomplete work in office.. even though i have been wantin to catch up with my buddies.. n there's lot of other thgs.. even though i ve been wantin to read that one book.. but caught up in smthg else........ when i jus say let this day be beautiful, I'm expectin myself to find out "that" time for all this..  n yeah it sure helps if smthg wrong happens, the hope that smthg better is yet to happen will get me over it.. this lil self talk of motivation surely gets me goin.. on n on.. for each mornin and each new day will have challenges, will have difficulties and lots of fun as well :)

Wedding.. waiting.... n happily ever afters!!!!!

Fairy tale weddings are abt surprises n a lil magic.. there's sm magic in the air, sprinkle of joy.. glow of love, n anxiety n excitement abt bein together.. after witnessing the Royal wedding, writing abt it was goin to happen.... a commoner bein whole heartedly welcomed in the royal family, the ppl on streets cheerin for her.. the wedding was all abt.. the wedding gown, the jewelery, the cake, the groom's blush while sayin " I do..." the glitter in the bride's eyes, everyone around you are jus wishing for ur happiness and well being..
Marriages unite not only the two individuals but their families as well.... every girl, waits for her dream groom..waits to fall in love.. weaves dream abt her future.. its sm wht her journey.. the dreams turning into reality.. we see a lot many weddings.. be a part of them.. as in attending ur sisters wedding.. ur best frnds wedding.. there's so much goin on around you.. the shoppin.. the last minute details.. the caterers.. the guests.. the make up.. the photo's.. so much.. that you jus cant sink in it all.. you flow along.. I have always noticed this, that there’s smthg abt the bride n groom.. when they stand together, they always seem to fit in.. I mean, its lik made for each other!!!!
I remember the first weddin, first as in from the time that I’ve started understanding wht was goin around me.. I had gone for my grandpa’s frnd’s, son’s wedding.. I was in 2^nd std.. wearin my fav dress.. as it was me.. who had insisted on goin for the weddin.. ahh jus another way to roam with grandpa.. mum had said.. don’t leave his hand n run around.. yeah.. I very well remember her sayin it!!!!!! Off course I was a naughty kid.. n cute too, in my sky blue frock.. a charmin young lady as well :)

After reachin the venue.. everyone was a stranger, but obvious.. as it wasn’t my play ground or school.. to knw or recognize ppl around.. yet ppl walked towards me, said hi.. asked which school was I studyin in..??? but my all attention was at the bride n groom.. why are they bein separated by a curtain??? ( well in Indian or to b more precise, in bramin weddings.. the bride n groom are made to exchange garlands, while the priest chants few mantra’s n before exchanging the garlands they are not allowed to see each other n Sooo there’s a curtain held by two priests…)
  yeahh.. so I asked Nana.. (that’s wht I call my grandpa) that even though they are nicely dressed up.. why they aren’t seein each other???? Oh.. my nana jus smiled at me n said.. in 2 mins they’ll see each other.. n then I saw everyone went to greet them.. gave gifts.. Now my question was is it their bday today???? Coz that’s when I got lots of gifts :)… n Nana said.. they ll b livin together naaa.. so they are getting gifts for their new home.. (n yesss after knowin this, I did ask abt all those gifts that my dad n mom had received when they came in our house.. my dad thought a while, but Nana explained) oh.. after me n Nana greetin them.. my Nana had carried a huge box some gift I must say.. we had lunch there.. I still remember Nana talkin to every person that we met that day.. on the dinin table.. in the hall.. comin back home was fun too, coz I too had got a gift.. a teddy from Nana’s best frnd.. he was happy to gift it to me.. sayin.. to my grandpa.. soon we would be witnessin her weddin.. as the time will fly…. Time sure has gone by.. n I too am waitin for my prince charming.. the fairy tale wedding.. and yeah.. the gifts for our new house ;)