Thinkinnnnn

Its so true that we think about many thgs at a time.. we start with smthg, we conclude smthg else… there are thgs we want to discuss n understand it better, there are thgs we are unaware of n when in a conversation we jus realise it…. Its lik opening up to every aspect of a thg.. the various facets of a single thg…. The ppl around us, their opinion, their experiences teach us, guide us, smtimes we agree smtimes we don’t…..

In the morning if u wake up with a smile, n u’ll find many reasons to smile abt throughout the day… at times it isn’t so.. u may start wit a lot of enthusiasm, n sm plan in my mind, but would end up feelin low… for sm unknown reasons ur thoughts would b distracted, a weird lonely feelin will catch up with u….

I’m so feelin the same right now.. simply lost, n still don’t want to b found….. it started off with beautiful morning, a nice cup of coffee.. my fav song on the radio channel, taking a nice head bath, dressin up in my fav attire… hummin the same tune.. I come to my desk.. with the same happiness I change my wallpaper as well, ask to get smthg to munch… say hi, hello to all… it’s a happy chirpy start…..
now while munchin…… jus lik a virus, a thought pops in.. why do I think in English.. my mother tongue bein marathi, I still thk in English.. why so??? I try to thk in marathi.. n I actually take efforts.. add up a few words, try to conclude smthg, re collect few conversations, but hell no……. I end up thkin or wandering in my thoughts with the broken marathi n English words to support… crazy isn’t it…??

So helpless I was n so angry on myself… why is this thinking process so difficult.. at the end its my mother tongue…………??

Seeking out the answers for the same, its surely a food for thought, yaa I do feel comfortable with English, may b my vocab is equally supportive of thoughts… my conversations with frnds on certain topics may b in English itself… jus running thru all this.. n yet again I end up thkin in English itself..